My dream came true...

...when my close friend gave birth to a girl baby on Jan 6th, last Friday. I have never believed in these 6th sense thoughts and all that though my mom always have told me she could relate to her close ones happy/sad moments however far they were. I now know how it feels to know what would be happening to someone who is very close to you but physically is as far as 400Kms away.

Friday early morning I had a dream, very strange one - which had my close friend D in it. D was full term preggy and was fast approaching her due date. It had been quite some time I spoke to her. To say the fact, I dint even find time to think about her for the past 10days. So, the dream seemed really odd. We (D and I) were in hospital. She was having those so called labor pains. I was holding her hand with a very tense face while she remained cool. In some minutes I went to call Doctor's help in which time she delivered a beautiful baby boy all by herself. She was smiling when I came back with the doctor. The baby was the cutest. He was all smiling and playing in his own way. All of a sudden we were surrounded by some 4-5 unknown ppl. I, accompanied by some unknown were taking the baby back to her home. I see S there. We were talking about the baby's playfulness. In no time I see my friend D walking towards us, with no pain, all smiling. I was so happy for her and the baby. I was almost living through this dream when my alarm went off. I had no choice but to wake up from this beautiful dream. Through out the day, I had wanted to talk to D. I knew her due date was on Jan 15th. I wanted to get alternate contact details to know the happy news when she delivers. Somehow, I couldnt find time at all. :(

At 8Pm that night, I made a call to her so that she would atleast call me back when she is available. When the call was at the verge of disconnecting, I had her bro answer the call. I thought D was too tired. As expected, anna said she was taking rest. I was like , okie... I will call her back later. That was when anna told something which seemed undecipherable for me. I was like.. what? then he repeated again - D has had baby just now! I was like... Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat?? (again!) Anna couldnt help but laugh at my expression. He said Its a Girl and both mom & baby are doing good. C-sec it was. I couldnt believe my ears. My ever innocent, sweet friend had a girl baby and I had somehow known this fact 12hrs before. STRANGE I say!!! Some differences though - I had dreamt of baby boy delivered normally while she had a girl baby through C-sec. Whatever it is... I must assume I now have some special powers and pay attention to all my dreams :)

As 2011 comes to an end.............

I cant believe this year is coming to an end so soon. It just feels like I was at home celebrating the new year 2011 and now, its already 2012.. really looks like time's flying. 2011, you have been the best and memorable year in many ways.. You gave me some tough times too, but all in all you were the best!

- for the most awaited occasion, our wedding happened this year. It like a dream come true, like the ever impossible thing happening to us - Joined hands with the love of my life forever!

- for understanding the love my family has for me, yet again! They willing to even bend the sky to get me what I wish.

- for finding a new family who would take care of me like their own.

- for getting to know the true colors of some people called relatives and let go of them. 

- for feeling the pain of missing and being missed.

- for being extended spinster for 2 months after wedding - I now know world throws crap at you. 

- for setting up a new home all by myself - My Home, where we have started our lives together.

- for knowing the big sacrifices made by S to make me happy.

- for the happiness on my parents faces coming to my home.

- for the holidays (two) we took together as a couple. 

- for the independence and the choices this life has given me.

- for having a busy work schedule which keeps me fully charged.

- for getting the worst backache twice(!) to understand how many people really care for you. 

- for having the best husband who listens all the time and shares the joy, happiness, pain, sorrow and everything with me.

- for all the time I took this year to cherish the artistic side of me, it was the best. 

- for all the new stuff I cooked, including the worst and best ones - I know have a fixed experiment rat :D thanks!

- finally, for starting a blog to explore a new arena where I am no good at, So what, I am atleast trying!

2012 is going to be another year of important decisions, which could be life turning for me. Looking forward to it! So, here's wishing a very happy new year in advance! :)

If I have one secret wish for this new year, it would be to make S a very very very talkative person. Please God, please grant this wish for me. I am bored of all the talking I do. :)

Buying off the Groom....

Dad's close friend - whom I call Uncle A has finally settled his daughter Su's wedding. Now Su is three years elder than me and her family was trying hard to fix her wedding for the past 1.5 years. Su is a post graduate and is working in an MNC. From the beginning, marraige was not her priority. She infact fought a lot for doing Pg while her dad wanted to marry her off. Uncle A was totally against "a girl doing Pg and going for a job". He says - " It becomes so tough to find a boy from my caste who is as educated as Su and earns more than her". He doesnt stop there. He says a well educated girl will be difficult to handle and turn stubborn. If all this is not enough, he adds furthermore. I will be the one spending lakhs on her education now, but in future she will be beneficial only to her in-laws. I am not the one who is going to reap the benefits. I should spend so much on her wedding too. <I am thanking God for gifting me with a sane dad who doesn't think like this>  Su argued, fought, cried and finally found her way to continue her studies. Anyways coming back to the wedding story, Uncle A couldnt accept the thought that I was getting married much earlier while he couldnt find a suitable match for his daughter. That aggravated the search process. He had certain conditions -

• The boy should be from the same caste, sub caste, sub division and like wise. 
• Should be earning more than her
• Should be equal/more in education compared to Su.
• Should be based out in his native (Vizag) but working somewhere else
• Should be a professional
• Horoscopes should match perfectly
• Should be speaking mother tongue (telugu) fluently < though his daughter cant speak a few lines in telugu    properly>
• Should have good looks.

These are some of the conditions of any parents trying to fix an arranged wedding for their girl. But struggling in the sea of horroscopes of an year and half, that too trying to find a match from the same caste, travelling from Chennai to Vizag (20+hrs travel in train) every other week, paying lump-sum amounts to the wedding brokers for every unsuccessful match - He should have woke up!! After a very tiring process of all this, he has atlast- finally-somehow fixed a match.  I am happy for her. Or Wait.. Am I really happy? I dont think so.. I feel sorry for her and hope everything goes smooth and happy for a girl who is so good. Why Sorry one may ask.. Here are the reasons -

• Wedding Dowry - 10lakhs (they are still bargaining), 1 lakh to be given to SIL-to-be. Totally 11lakhs.
• Wedding Jewels for the girl - 15 sovereigns
• Wedding Jewels for the boy - 3 sovereigns on gold bracelet, another 3 on chain and a ring for engagement     and another ring for the wedding.
• Money exchange for the wedding clothes - Girl to be given 30K from groom's side and Boy to get 15K from Girl's side. (logic behind - GIRL = 2 * BOY)
• Just like that - A silver plate, glass, cup and what not!
• Wedding Arrangements - to be taken care by Girl's family - Engagement in a big hotel. Wedding in a big     hall (both in Vizag) followed by a grand reception in Chennai.
• Others - Sets and sets of clothes to be given away to the groom and his relatives.
• Apart from all this - A Big Bag of full of rice and like wise. Uncle should also give 2.5% of the dowry amt   (which is 25K) to the wedding broker and set of clothes to his family too.

What I really dont understand is Are they buying off the groom or getting their daughter married??!!? Uncle A has actually a long list that's been given by the boy's family which has all the above details and much more. All this happens with a family that is well educated and the guy is a professional. Doesnt he have a mind of his own to atleast tell his parents not to be so cheap? What does the girl get after all this money exchange - Happiness?? No.. If she is to be anything like me - she will end up having all guilt of making her dad debt prone which eventually will turn up into hatred towards her husband. She is a professional too and earns as much as him. Will these ppl accept if she wants to give away her salary to her dad after marriage? I dont believe so.. I cant think any further, keeping me so disturbed. Uncle A will have to spend around 35-45lakhs on this whole thing called marriage.. and he has no choice!

Some unsaid things about me....

Every person would have something within that cant be shared outright. Be it silly fears, quirks, unsaid crush or anything that you cant find out even after being with the person for a period. I wanted to soul search (haha!) and write down few of those here.

-> Fear of dark - I can step into an empty house which is pitch dark and find my way, no issues there. But I had (still have) fears going into my room with no lights on, for I thought there is a monster hiding under my bed. Never revealed it out though.
-> Being studious - I used to wake up early every morning during my school days. Being the lazy bum, I would sit up with a book and start studying to escape helping mom with kitchen works. Ended up being the most studious girl in the class :P
-> I have no rhythm in my body at all. I cant even shake my hip and legs in sync even once! I have never danced in my life except for the only time I joined group dance in school for the Annual day. The teacher had such a hard time with me, I was sent off while my sis still danced :( I forgot the word dance right then, after this maha defeat!
-> I am afraid of failures or defeat for that matter. I think its my ego that never accepts my falling. Before jumping into any action, I weigh and analysis all the possibilities - always. I feel stressed and depressed when something different happens from my expectations. This is one thing I need to improve.
-> I once tried to pluck a rose from my neighbour's plant without her knowledge (she was the most fighting and cruel lady) to get caught by her. Fortunately, she remained calm that day and gave away the rose to me. It pricks me everytime even now if I see a similar colored rose anywhere.
-> I like the smell of cooking gas leaking (hopefully, I dont open up the valve to enjoy the fragrance :P )
-> My pinches can cause the entire hand go numb (Mom and sis knows them well) and I show my love with pinches sometimes :)
-> I was taller than mom by the time I was 11 years. Most of the times, ppl asked if we weer sisters. It was a proud moment for me until I understood what it meant and then, I never walked along with her. Even now I am bigger than mom (she is 12Kgs lesser than me) :(
-> When someone says I cant do something, I will take whatever it takes to show them that I can very much do it. I think it was in me right from the childhood. During my 4th std holidays, I wanted to learn riding a bicycle. Dad wasnt interested in teaching me. I learnt it myself in 3 days - only to monkey pedal though. When I told him about it, he brushed it off saying its impossible. I took him out right then and showed him what I could do - this time I could sit on the seat and go very fast. He was impressed! I was given bicyle to go to school and in few days, I was taking my sister on doubles.
-> How much ever I try, I cant get the right lyrics for any song. I somehow make up my own words and irritate the people music loving people around me. And I cant keep mum when a song is playing, thats another thing.
-> I find crying kids very very cute. Dont ask me why. I find them really cute when they crying their heads off. No I cant console them.. ;)
-> I love to surprise people around me. I dont telling a lie or two for that. The expressions on the face and happiness after the surprise is a delight to watch.
->During my childhood, I always wanted to have a girl baby when I grew up. My dad used to say, those who lie a lot will have only daughters. I used to make it a point to tell a tie only for this. (how silly!! :( )
-> I am straight forward, which makes people think I am an arrogant. I have invited dislike among my relatives for this behavior.
-> I am  very obsessed with the gifts I receive. I will keep them very close to me until I understand that no one is gonna snatch them off from me. As a child, I have incidents where I was holding the things that dad gets for me even while sleeping.
-> The last one, I hate melons like hell. I cant even stand the smell of it.

This is more than enough of my soul search. Its feels good to do this, I shall come back to this post every often and update.

Engaging weekend!

After 3 weeks, I got a weekend to spend for myself. To sleep more, to eat more. Our plan to go Chennai was very much spoilt when irctc decided it should never come up at the most expected time of tatkal - resulting which we couldnt get tickets, I was only more happy for the weekend to be spent like this :)

Saturday saw me waking up at 8.30 or so.. I woke up hungry! No bath, no cleaning amidst a very very dirty home and a kitchen sink full of dishes. I managed to clear the way only to reach kitchen, fish out the dosa tava. Inspite of all the mess - I was interested to prepare masala dosa chennai style with groundnut chutney - Yummy combination, that one! After a satisfying breakfast, I went back to my bed - thanks to the heavy masala dosa. After 15-20mins, I could do nothing but bring myself back to the kitchen sink - to do a million dishes(Not that I own that many, but I was stuck in the task for an hour or more!) I had put my MP4 to good use while doing the dishes - singing with my loud, shrill voice (thanks to the throat pain) ignorant of the irritation I was causing to my neighbors and more to S. Then, I began cleaning the house fully. Sweeping took a good 45 mins, leaving the dutbin with a kilo of dust and sand. I dont know from where this house gets dusted so much given the fact that we leave it open for not more than 20 mins altogether everyday. I was still feeling energetic to mop the floor as well - little knowing abt that back pain that could come. The songs playing from my player were more than enough to keep me going. Inspite of a very cool and chill climate, I was fully wet at the end of all the cleaning activity. It felt good overall and very satisfying. Though my back pain was pulling me towards the bed, my stomach dragged me to the kitchen to cook. In a shot I made Dhondakaai fry (Tendli fry) with daal spiced with tomato tadka. Had a long afternoon sleep after a sumptuous meal. Where was S, one may ask. I would have thought I was alone at home doing all this by myself while he went to office on a Saturday, if he had not been sitting right infront of me on the sofa shouting on the phone for 4 hrs delegating work to some one on the other side (office work it all meant!). He rightly joined for the breakfast and lunch, atleast! I never  knew a long afternoon nap could cause me so much headache. I was feeling heavy on head, couldnt do much. We ordered pizzas from Dominos - heavy, very heavy dinner. These were the four pizzas - Soya-Tomato, Panner-Onion, Onion- Capsicum and Pineapple - Jalapeno. It was yummmmmmmm!! I had brought fever to myself by this time. S was supposed to get me a crocin, he got me a 5star crunchy along with it. :) :) What a perfect way to end the day after a lot of hard work :P

Sunday started off lazily - got up at 8.45 or so - Lazing around for an hour thinking of a good breakfast recipe. I started preparing Semiya Upma at 10. I dint have much work to do or so I thought - fogetting about the loads of clothes I had to wash :( I remembered it only while talking to amma. It was too late to act then. Did the dishes in some time and I was still feeling bored. Thats when I thought I would try preparing veg puffs in the new OTG. Got the recipe for it and started preparing - with the minimal quantities and all. Meanwhile, I was preparing the lunch which was Egg Biriyani. Had a good lunch and the I was set out to try veg puff again. I was half doubting that all the flour and butter was going to be waste. Also some details in the recipe were so confusing. Nevertheless, I wanted to try - but just the crispy outer layer of the puff with out the stuffing inside- called as puff pastry. S recalled that its called as "Bombay Salt" and he liked it so much in his childhood :) Feeling encouraged and all, I switched on the OTG. In 10 mins, the house was smelling like a bakery ( I am not exaggerating here). I was too shocked to see that I had actually prepared something better that the veg puff pastry that sells here. :) :) :) That left me so motivated that I thought of making garlic bread rolls next. This time, I could trust my skills and prepared for around 6 rolls. It was a bit complicated comparatively which left me doubtful again. The home was smelling of raw garlic and oregano. Once the rolls were made, I was only more doubtful. I thought they are going to be raw from inside. How wrong I proved to be - I kept  a watch on the oven as the bread was getting ready. I had strong garlic bread rolls that were so soft and fully done - yet so healthy for I used less than 2 teaspoons for oil and 1 spoon of butter. Its the most healthiest form of garlic bread, but very tasty. S loved everything and we had so much fun.

It was almost evening and we decided to go out. Went to Big Bazaar - looked at some items (which are of no use to be purchased) for 1 hour and came out without getting anything :) As if this window shopping was not enough, we went to Park Square Mall and spent another 2 hours there. I got a Patiala Pant, duppata which  I was not even sure would match any of my kurtis (which is my Christmas gift BTW) and found Happy Endings (a Chocolate Cafe). I had Tiramisu while S had Greman Choc Truffle. Its always like this - I like what S orders better than mine and thus ended up eating half of his, in addition to eating a full tiramisu. As if this wasnt enough for our dinner, we stopped at Beijing Bites on our way and had these - American Chopsuey, Singapore Noodles, Chilly Fried Babycorn and Mirinda. I was so full that, moving 10 steps seemed so hard. Came home to watch TV till midnight. Stupid me, caught up a real stupid argument at that time with S and we kept arguing till it was 1. We really dont know when our eyelids closed amidst the argument. :) I would say, It was all in all a  very engaging and fun filled weekend. Some pics of some of the dishes tried out with OTG so far.

Wheat Biscuits - made to give office friends!

Choco Vanilla Spiral Cookies :)

Mini Veg Puff Pastries:)

Garlic Bread Rolls :)

I now fit to become a TV serial Villi... :|

I am a short tempered person. Get angry at the drop of pin and I am quite ashamed of it. Once its your character, you cant change anything abt it, can you? Yes.. how much ever I try, I just cant change my attitude over some things. If I try hard to show a smiley face when I am angry, I see that all the anger bounces fast with much more force. No better then!

By God's grace, S is the most cool headed guy. Never ever raises his voice, forget the temper! I know why my marriage has survived for this long (10 months) with no major breakdowns. I can positively say that we have not had a major fight till now  (kaala tikka moment I say!) though we argue on silly things, now thats what makes the relationship going right.. If I lose my temper and shout at S, he remains calm - mostly silent or giving me a simple answer. Once I am down, we sort the things out. I make a point to tell him all about the situation that made me go angry and gain he listens patiently. We try to avoid that kind of situation in future and that works! Another point is - he can forget anything easily. I am the type who remembers everything. That way, he forgets everything that happens while I remember the slightest detail of what color dress I/ He were wearing when what happened etc.. I can only try again - but this is another character of mine, I cant stop doing it. Ok Ok, now coming to the title of the post. Had a big breakdown in home yesterday which I dont want to miss taking note here -for I should never do it again in my life - I am so unhappy with myself!

I come back home from a stressed out day at work, feeling hungry with sudden rise in temp. My body is aching - every joint is painful when moved. I was lying on the sofa for sometime before deciding on the dinner. Pizza we thought for the night - the one baked in the new OTG. After cutting the veggies and preparing the pizzas, I am worn out fully that I went back to sofa. S was taking care of them - One turned to be a bit dark underneath. By the time, it was brought to me I was very hungry I started to eat it. S warned me not to eat that and we both would share the other good one. I was hungry beyond listening that I kept eating and he kept warning me to put that down. Now - if somebody messes up with my food or the way I eat, I get pissed off. I was flaring with anger that I had put the pizza back on the table. S, finally relieved to see me put off the pizza said - good if you dont eat this, we can make some dosas. At this moment I dont know what went into me - I was so angry that I pushed the table apart so hard that, both the pizzas fell upside down on the floor (including the good one)- made a huge noise from other items falling down. I was silent. S went ahead to clean everything - without uttering a word. Cleared the table and prepared dosa for both of us and shove it to me. All the while - I couldnt bring myself to do nothing but cry - I was more than ashamed of my behaviour. How could I do that and how could he not scold me or slap me for what I did? After all, I threw the food! which is so mean. Furthermore dint help him. He came to me, said these words - "Neeye thalli vitte, ippo neeye alara.." Yes.. I know my mistake. I was so hungry but couldnt touch the food. He took a piece of dosa and put it in my mouth. I couldnt help but cry more. I cant do this to a person who is so good. I uickly ate my dosas, laid down on his lap. Looked into his eyes with my teary eyes and asked sorry. He didnt seem to bother. Not that, he dint bother abt my sorry - he dint bother abt my bad behaviour, so that sorry was meaningless to him! Later in a comical tone - he came to me and said, "Unnai...... Vittuten... En na.... Vittuten.. Po" In Ajith or Rajini style I dont remember. I could smile happily after all! I am blessed to get this best half who is way beyond understanding me..:)

To do or Not to do?

I have stuck up with a big dilemma right now. I have been managing (ok, ok more like dwelling with it) my home with no domestic house help for all these months (again, its been 10months only now). Its getting so tough these days, everyone is suggesting me to get a servant-maid. The only prob being I am not very comfortable with the idea. All during my childhood I have dreamt of managing a home wonderfully, with no help from anyone. I have seen my mom do it and she is my true inspiration. Now that doesnt mean I am as good as mom. No- I can only try but can never do as much as mom does even now.

MIL is another instance - who manages such a big house with no help at all. She doesnt even prompt anyone with simple works also. If I go there, I would out of sheer interest take part in kitchen chores, then she doesnt stop me. I dont know from where energy flows in for these two ladies in my life. I feel so tired after each task that  I would rest for sometime before proceeding or vent out my anger/depression to S. Forget energy man I feel so lazy!! Sometimes I feel like just putting both my legs up and sit on the sofa doing nothing! I can only wish though. There are other instances where I will have a very bad day at work, feel depressed and stressed out. On top of this, if I should come home and do some house work like, sweeping/mopping the house or doing the dishes - its so tiring. Other days, when I have terrible headache - I cant even think of going near the kitchen, forget doing dishes altogether! All these have a tough toil on S. We dont have a specific division of labor here - Do if you can, else the other one will take care. On days when I cant do some really important chore, S is being forced to do it - atleast for me! Bear in mind that he travels more comparitively and does work hard at office as well and some days, he would come home tired too. It becomes wrong on my part to impose household work on him on these kinds of days. It doesnt happen often but I end up eating my own guilt on these days, when he has already  suggested like a hundred times to get househelp.

Result of all this - I cant do some tasks on day to day basis - like sweeping the home, cleaning the portico or folding the clothes. Other tasks (do or die kind of) like cooking, doing the dishes are a regular task. These days there is this additional problem - chilly chill Bangalore and that leaves me sick 6.5 out of 7 days. I dare not to open the water tap - for the water is ice cold. My hands are going numb while doing the dishes. There is so much dust everywhere in the house- which is again taking a toll on our health ( yes yes, S is slowing getting to be like me, after staying with me for ten whole months, poor guy!!! ). My mom is stubborn to the core that I hire a house help immediately. I cant get to think of it myself. OK, I am not a miser - thinking of this from money terms. But all I am thinking abt is - when my mom and MIL can do it perfectly, why not me (if not perfect?). Again, I am not that physically involved in any works as my mom or MIL had been. I am not convinced on getting a help, but looks like there is no choice - for my mom or MIL doesnt work whereas I do. That looks like more than convincing point that, I would get a house help soon.. Still in dilemma..

The Weekend Post

I am starting on the weekend post series to record the activities that I am doing every weekend. This was a very happening weekend for me, Mom, dad and sister were here - meaning I dint have to step into kitchen, lie on dad for a change and nag sister, all while doing nothing but eating mom's food. Very relaxing weekend that way!

We went to Total Mall on Saturday evening, got loads of clothes (again!). I dont how how I end up liking a whole bunch of kurtis and any salwar material I set my eye upon while my sister is very very choosy. I mean, every cell of her should like it, literally!! :P I also got a saree for my mom and one for the househelp person my mom has back home. Poor dad and S, didnt get anything..ok ok I am miser that ways.. :) Actually, all the ladies wear had amazing discounts that, S had to stop me falling on the clothes. I got the best deals for some brands - Kurti for 134Rs, Dupatta for 99Rs so on and so forth.

After a never ending time of selecting kurtis, my dad wanted to go about the store to look out for other stuff too. I ran ahead of him and got a digital thermometer (what? Its a must in GreenBoochi-dom!). I was just looking at all the oven, microwaves being displayed, when S comes to me and asks me to choose one from them. I was shocked to even speak a word. My sis made sure I definitely get an OTG and we both chose the best of all while S paid the bill (see, see - there he is.. showering his love :P ) Its a Morphy Richards OTG which comes with Oven, Grill and Toaster. Additionally there is this Rotiserri which I was damn sure I would never use (Ok.. Its for Barbecuing Chicken as whole) but am impressed with additional features, jump in and get that. For the night we ordered from Dominos - should say everyone enjoyed except for dad (Mom and dad doesnt likes these kinds of foods).

Sunday Morning saw us prepare for the adventure with the OTG. Read the manual like a 100 times, searched the net through out the day to get recipes and going to the super market to get the items. We made thorough use of the oven with a variety of dishes -

1. Wheat Biscuits - Amazing taste that reminded me of chennai butter biscuits.
2. Panner Tikka with Green Pepper and Onions - Got superb comments (S mentioned that the taste overdid BBQ nation) I was pretty pleased
3. Choco Vanilla Spiral cookies - Good ones to try, but a lot of work.
4. Coconut macroons - Waste of time, we were left with a smoky room :P

Ok, out of these 4 only one was a disaster and I think its perfectly Ok :) I packed a few of no.3 to take back Chennai :) Soon i would be making garlic bread, cup cakes, muffins and would love to bake a full cake. All I want is some  time and more of energy. I must say, one must be really enthusiastic about all this till the end, cos You would be left with 100s of dishes to be cleaned and You cant escape! I had my mom who was generous enough to help me with the final task and of course all others did the honors of appreciating me when due :)

All-in-all a very fun filled, surprising and amazing weekend :)

From Kindergarten with Love....

This post is gonna make me all nostalgic. I have one bestest friend right from my kindergarten. She is more of my inner part - I can call her for anything and ask her anything. I know she will be there for me whatever it takes. She is the bestest of my best friends and I love her so much. Our lives are so different for she had an arranged marriage while mine was love. But nothing stops us from sharing things - I can boldly discuss anything under the sun and she will listen to me. So many days, i have cribbed to her, my problems and she gives me suggestions to make my life easier. When we talk on phone, its usually not for minutes - but hours until the battery drains. I dont have to think twice before talking to her - she accepts anything and everything. Its my M..

We were benchmates right from standard 1 to standard 12 except in class 6 where she was put in a separate class. We would wait restlessly for the interval breaks and lunch breaks to be together, talk endlessly. I dont think she knew.. I was so possessive of my friend and would feel bad if she spent some time with others but never showed it out.. (This was during the 4-5 std). Our homes were so apart, we would just get those 8 hours everyday to share everything. Moreover I would go home bicycling and she would take the school bus. Every day, she would get the cycle from my mom during lunch breaks to practice doing it and we would have great fun. Some of my life's best moments are from school spent with her. She is the most positive minded person and has the right attitude to do everything, she will atleast try. Even when I have some doubts on myself, she would give me the confidence. We both have so many common interests and few differences. We love cartoons - Popeye and tom&jerry being top on the list.We would discuss the day's cartoon episodes during the 1st hour class and enjoy laughing all again. We loved painting , drawing stuff. Our families and we were religious, so during quarterly holidays, we had the chance to meet up at Vaishnavi  Kovil, standing in the queue, laughing having fun. One more interesting thing is, both our dads are friends themselves and are from same batch in office. So, we were close that way also. :) The only difference is that she loved games whereas I was a lazy bum. One more - She loves dogs and I am afraid even at the mention of name. :)

I can proudly say that, we had never had a single fight during our entire journey till now (M, I can remember one and cant forget that - but that doesnt count as fight - hope you agree ) we have shared only love, love and more love. If there is one person whom I can call even at 12 midnight to discuss an issue, that would only be M and she wont be bugged.. I know for sure. I can talk anything silly from everything serious and she would listen. We have gone through days where we couldnt contact each other, our love has never diminished and it keeps going.

I have very few friends and all of them are close and best. What makes M different is that, we have been together since childhood and our friendship has no end. She knows me in and out and I know her every inch. Thoughts keep on flowing and I am so excited and nostalgic that I cant put everything into words.. So, this for you M - and wish to see junior M soon :)

Uncertainity and Philosophy!

My mind doesn't seem to be peaceful at all right now. There are millions and zillions of thoughts wandering inside. I am not able to make out if I am happy or not! Some philosophy flowing in as a result.. *complete rant*

- Family values and being friendly should be taught right from childhood.

- TV is not the whole world and there can be some real people around you.

- Wasting food is no good

- Sleep deprivation can make one very angry and depressed at the same time

- Having so many people around but no one paying attention is not so good feeling

- Should consult everyone before making food choices

- People you think as family can think you otherwise.

- Not everyone will give you a helping hand at the time of need.

- Takes a lot of effort to satisfy people

- Just a moment is enough to untidy a clean room.

- Having MIL with you has zillions of benefits.

- Dont go outing when you are PMSing, it can even break your back and dont ever depend on public restrooms.

- Its your home and you need to take care of it - instead of expecting others.

- Working in the kitchen throughout the day all alone can be so depressing. 

- All you do with full dedication wont be rewarding always.

- Doing dishes is the worst ever job, that too right after eating.

- Cooking comes with a bone breaking additional task - which is doing the dishes, refer above point.

- One can only try to bring happiness in others, but it remains within the self to be happy or not.
- Worst of worst Headache can last for 3+ days, inspite of those pills you popped in

- Last but not the least, your husband is your last,best resort and will be there for you whatever it takes!!